“You’re an inspiration”

I have dreaded writing this post.

It’s been eating away at me for weeks.

There’s this woman at work who keeps telling me things like, “You’re so inspiring!” and “I could never do what you do.” I don’t even know how to react to someone saying something like that. I think a lot about how my shyness probably comes across as bitchiness (which of course just makes me shyer, because I perpetually feel like I’ve offended someone). Now there’s someone paying me compliments that I don’t even think are true, and I don’t want to be similarly misunderstood. We work in the same general area, but not together, so I may see her everyday for two weeks and then not again for a month. I don’t know if I should just ask her to stop talking about my weight/progress — even though she isn’t saying anything mean! — or just learn to live with it.

I get that it’s my issue, my hangup, I should be the one to change … but how?

12 hours

In twelve short hours, I will be starting my first session at Crossfit Bangor.

Right now, I’m sitting in my doctor’s exam room, still coughing. I don’t imagine he’ll tell me not to go tonight, but I do think he’ll probably give me a new inhaler. Or maybe just tell me to suck it up — or cough it out, as the case may be.